Day 84 – Two Words

I had a really great day today. I did an interview and therapy and shopping etc.

But I heard two words on the radio that really triggered me.

Just two words. How is it possible to have hundreds of memories come flooding back in one small moment of time.

I immediately wanted to throw up. Little movies were playing in my mind.

This is PTSD. You think you have finally knocked it out and it sweeps over you like a tsunami.

I’m tired. Physically. Mentally. I went to the grocery store and couldnt shop. I came home with nothing. I wandered up and down each aisle thinking that I probably will never feel like eating again anyway.

I’m going to try to lay down and pray for the world to stop spinning.

Until next time – I am despising being MJ every day.

2 thoughts on “Day 84 – Two Words

  1. I’m so sorry. I began working with a new physical therapist and she taught me a new breathing technique that really helps. Lie down, take a regular breath in and then let out all the air…as in exhale everything, even when you think you are done let it all out. This really helped me. Hang in there…thinking of you.

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  2. Hey short notice… but are you available to meet up this week?

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