This day. These feelings. I’m overwhelmed. I’m shocked that I’m once again overwhelmed. It feels like my first day of revovery and yet it seems like years since I had a stable week.
I am lost. Am I hopeless? Am I ever going to have peace? I want so badly to go back to my old ways of numbness. Maybe I missed some feelings or love but at least I didn’t feel hopeless.
I am going to lay down and pray that I wake up with a better feeling about myself.
I’m tired. The tired that can’t be fixed with sleep.
Until next time – I am being MJ everyday.